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What a pleasant surprise this morning.  I woke up and went into the living room and a gentle snow was falling creating a quiet white blanket in neighborhood.

John, Chris, and I met up at Times Square the day before New Year's Eve. We were locals acting like tourists. BTW, Times Square was packed and full of New Year's Eve 2009 ambiance.

What a difference a week makes.

Heavy rain all day wiped out what was left of the snow.  I ventured out to browse at Barnes and Noble.  Picked up a 2010 calendar with a Zen theme, a day book, 2 books by Anais Nin, and a mini laptop desk...no more hot lap!

I wasn't going to put up a tree in the apartment... last Saturday, before the storm I was driving by Atlantic Nursery, something in me made me pull into their lot and I thought, if there is a tiny artificial lit tree, I'll get it... somehow, there was this purple and blue tree, perfect, it was made for me and my apartment, so I bought it and it is in the living room... it makes me feel better and drives away the sadness that the holidays have become.

Humans, unfortunately, are creatures of habit... it is why I've been blue this holiday season... all my routines, prep and execution haven't been performed.  I'm out of whack.  It is time to move on.  What was is now past... the good, the bad... its done, finished.  Remember the good, learn from the bad.

Holiday traditions and rituals become old and stale... I've realized that the joy, warmth, and happiness is achieved and maintained by creating new experiences with the special people in our lives.

I had a very unique Christmas Eve and Christmas morning this year... I'm grateful for the special person that brought magic and joy to my Christmas this year...

Almost showtime... Chris and I are chillin'

Mom was meeting friends in NYC for the 5pm "Christmas Spectacular" show at Radio City Music Hall.  Since I commute in via my Mini Cooper I picked her up in Queens on my way in and dropped her off right in front.  Went down 50th, bumper to bumper, took forever, but I wanted her to see the tree at Rockefeller Center...so, the creeping up from 2nd Avenue to 6th was worth it...for Mom.  It was beautiful... but... in my current mood of "are the holidays over and is it Jan. 1 yet?... I really couldn't appreciate it.  This is my first holiday season without all the usual routines... and I'm feeling blue about it all... my current, very complicated love life isn't helping... so, bring on 2010... I'm done with 2009.


I'm a typical suburbanite... commute in, work, get out and head home... no tourist stuff.  Once in awhile I get to accidentally appreciate the local sights.

As a kid I remember going to Radio City to see movies there, and back then you got the Rockettes show also.  Very cool.  I remember seeing my favorite John Wayne movie, "True Grit" there... that was 1969... I was 8... wow... 40 years ago.

I'm convinced that Facebook is a cult.

And yes, I'm on Facebook.
And no, I don't play Mafia Wars.