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sleep deprivation

Life as a rotating shift worker is a cyclical process of sleep derivation and life adjustment. Every 6 weeks I am living in a state of physical and mental jet lag. Simple life processes are mangled into time frames that resemble survival instead of living. Depression, isolation, and anxiety demons hover on the edge of my existence. Sleep becomes states of unconsciousness and when awake I live in an out of sync haze with mainstream reality that is just out of reach except for the brief moments I click into sync.

Think positive, meditate, don't give up. This too shall pass when I unlock the mystery of where I'm going and what I'm supposed to be doing...

reminders

So, I'm surfing the net, and of course Facebook statuses and comments are flying around.  A status of one of the young people on my friends list pops in... he is so excited about getting a job.  I was happy for him since, hey, many young people today aren't working!... and the enthusiasm for it was refreshing!   It made me think way back... to... A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far, away... when I was really excited about getting a job... the job I still have... the job I really don't like anymore... but I thanked Evan for reminding me that at one time, I did, and it was a magical moment when I got what I worked really hard to achieve. :)